still alive

♡with ezra miller the boyfie♡

i knew i'd abandon this blog. i'm sorry :( there are just so many things i could write about but i have no time. well even if i do, i can't bring myself to arrange the words and put down the stories in chronological order. whenever i have the urge to post something, it's always irrelevant and i just get lazy and end up never posting anything. any who, i promise to at least tell you what has been happening in my life.

so, i got accepted into university of indonesia! yeay...old news by now but i got into law. things have been pretty hectic. i had to go to uni almost everyday because there are somethings that freshmens need to do. it's pretty dumb i had to write tons of essays and do useless crap for the seniors.

since i was so caught up with uni, and actually socializing with human beings (i was the group leader) i felt....content. happy. well,
it was weird because with me being actually normal and happy i missed being reckless and i missed being sad. HELLO I MISS BEING SAD. that thought kept coming to me and it really weirded me out because c'mon...who misses being sad. it was really, a strange feeling i can't explain. i mean i guess i just miss all the creativity and all the thoughts that i thought about when i was all up in my ~depressive~ stage. i guess i just miss being so critical towards every thing and i guess i missed being destructive.

being a law student really changes your perspectives. well it changed mine. i stopped thinking about myself and more towards the greater good. like; i stopped being a moody teen and actually planned to save ze starving children. (i'm going to be the president btw)

alright well i'll still be posting pictures and stuff cause words get a bit boring.
adieu