I feel so unsettled and I should probaby write this down in my diary, yet..I don't want to. No one will ever know about it. And as much as that is the plus side, and also the major factor of a diary (keeping secrets as they are), I want people to know how I feel. No, not people. Just someone. Anyone I guess. Anyways, I feel like there is a part of me that is just trying to go some place else, yet my body is just stuck here. I feel sick, like I need to vom. Or maybe I'm just making this whole thing up. I'm not sure anymore. I don't know how I feel. I guess I just want someone to talk to, someone who understands without all the drama and hassle. Sort of like an OS system who knows everything you ever wantand think of. I just watched the movie Her, by Spike Jonze and I don't know..I just. Feel. I feel so out of touch with my own head right now it's ridiculous. It's like that scene in Eternal Sunshine where Kate Winslet feels like all her body is deteriorating and her skin is melting. I'm too young to have a nervous breakdown, and I wouldn't call it that either. I don't know...I say I don't know too much. But really, I just don't know.
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